Sigh, i've done so many bad things lately. I keep thinking about my painful past moments. Its really depressing, Im aware of it. Most of my time, all I did is finding ways to forgive myself.. So maybe my nightmare will be over. But I cant. The nightmare starts to flow faster than a river. I cant take it anymore. Im soo aware I done bad things that hurt people around me. I wanna change. I want too. I tried many times. But I fail.

All I want is to live in happy life, where I smile everyday. Where Im proud of what im doing everyday. Im finding ways to reach my goal. Im rich so? Im not happy. Im depressed.
I have nightmare. I want it to be over...